It wasn’t a head first dive, but
a rather graceful twist. My body turned mid-air until my back was facing the
ground and my eyes were grazing the clouds. I spread my arms out and savoured
the sensation of moving air currents slipping in between my fingers. My mind
was a pure blank slate, suspended in a state of default just waiting to be
filled with new impulses.
The first of
these impulses came in the form of realisation, the realisation that I wasn’t
falling. The second impulse was that the darkness wasn’t closing in on me. The
third was a pleasant sensation. This sensation began deep in the back of my
mind, quickly it picked up speed moving from one neuron to another, one atom to
the next until my whole body vibrated with an acute pleasantness.
I
stayed suspended like that for what seemed like an eternity, but couldn’t have
been more than a few seconds. Every tiny shift in the wind, every ray of sunlight
was absorbed into my humming body. I felt an absolute connection with the
world. The confusion that had gripped me for the past few days cleared like a
bad storm.