I needed to
get back to Sebastian and tell him everything that I had learned. I knew that
he would feel the same way about this as I did because as much power as we had
within us and as much reverence as we held for the Earth we weren’t willing to
begin a genocide of the human race. There were no two ways about it, if we
started on the slippery slope of killing whoever was in our way then we would
end up not caring about killing everyone. The fact that this was not only a
possibility, but a probability made me shiver.
I relished
the idea of being an Earth Warrior, but I didn’t want to lose my humanity in
the process. I couldn’t just become a mindless destruction machine because the
Mother had found me compatible with her ideals. It wasn’t who I was.
I stood up
and brushed the chalk-like remnants of the rock from my fingers. All the boys
were looking at me expectantly and I realised that they were counting on me to
help them.
“I have to go
and find my friends” I said pointlessly, they all stared back at me blank
faced, waiting for me to do something, but it was bloody impossible to mime
that out so I just turned and started walking away.